I have a hard time admitting that things are my fault. When people get upset with me, I tell them that there were things they could have done to prevent something from happening. I don’t like feeling completely responsible for something bad. Like sometimes I forget to do something because I prefer thinking about something else. Maybe I’m worried I’ll be told to stop daydreaming. It’s hard for me though because there is other stuff I really don’t like thinking about or actually doing.
There are things I do take responsibility for, such as the mistakes I made when I was a kid. I wonder though if those mistakes count because I didn’t know what I was doing back then. I also take responsibility now by doing chores around the house. I don’t like hearing anything about me being lazy, because while it was kind of true, it bothered me a bit that I could be wrong. Another example is when I get into arguments with people, I wonder if they are right and that’s it my fault for not seeing things their way.
I know no one is perfect, but I still feel like there’s something wrong with me if there are things I can’t do well that others can. I need to be realistic though and learn from my mistakes so I’ll stop making them. If something’s my fault I need to accept it and move on. I have to so I can realize that a mistake is a mistake and that there is nothing wrong with me overall.
