Quarantine

     How am I doing with the COVID-19? Mostly, I’m annoyed that everyone keeps talking about it. The people in my life are okay, but I miss going to restaurants and getting to see some people. My dad’s too afraid of getting me sick so I’ve been staying with my mom since schools were closed.

     My education has become weekly assignments on computers. I’ve been staring at computers longer than I ever have in my life. I get distracted, but in a classroom I have nothing else to do, but finish my work. I manage to get it done though because I care about my grades. It’s also only the first week of assignments that aren’t optional so I’m still getting used to it.

     Being inside isn’t too bad. I was like this before because I don’t socialize much. This saved me from buying a dress I would only wear once to prom. Dances can be a bit much for me because I don’t like the loud music and I’m too shy to talk to anyone. It sucks however that I don’t know what’s going with graduation. That’s a big moment in everyone’s life, but the virus has left the world frozen with things being canceled. If it weren’t for the fact that I had different meal plans each day I would probably forget what day it was.

     I do a lot of things to distract me since I only leave the house once a day now and sometimes it’s only for walks because there’s no other plans. I feel like I’m handling well compared to other people. Most people are really overwhelmed, but I don’t let it get to me as much. I know this will end soon and until then I’m surviving.

Feelings

     I’m sorry that I have been absent for a long time. I’ve had a lot going on and to be honest the longer I put off writing the harder it was to come back and actually do it. I don’t like to talk about the same things in my posts and it was hard for me to write everything like it was a problem. When I think about what to write, I guess I want to sound like the person who gets through problems, but I worried that writing about the small stuff would sound silly when everyone has those thoughts.

     Confrontation can be scary for me so I try to ignore it by thinking of something else, but it gets more and more in my head how I might be letting viewers down even if not a lot of people read this. Some people think it’s amazing I’m doing this and I shouldn’t stop. I agree, but I’ve had problems where my anxiety makes me worry how a story I’m writing is unoriginal or uninteresting. I want to get through things that are hard for me, but that doesn’t mean they're still not hard.

     As for what’s been happening with me, I got accepted into Bridgewater State University! I feel so proud of myself and I would like to use it as a chance to explore new things. I’m thinking of living there, having a roommate. I want to try socializing and going out so I can have fun while heading for the future. I’m nervous, but I need to go for it like I’m doing with this blog.